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December 3, 2000 (13 1/2 weeks): My mommy went to an appt on Dec 1st (at 13 weeks). She heard my heartbeat, it was 170 beats per minute and the midwife said I sound like a girl, but that doesn't mean that I am, I guess they will find out on Jan 4th (18 weeks) when mommy has a Level 2 ultrasound done. Mommy and I are in our second trimester now!
December 21, 2000 (16 weeks): Mommy had her blood drawn for the Quad Screen test today (test for birth defects). The results take 10 days. Mommy hears my heartbeat with a home doppler and my heart rate is always 160's-170's. Could I be a girl?
January 4, 2001 (18 weeks): Mommy's Quad screen results came back fine. Mommy went to the UCONN Health Center today to have a Level 2 ultrasound done to check me out! I was very active, as usual I was moving all around. The ultrasound tech was trying to look at me, but I was having too much fun! *giggle* I have the cutest little feet! I was sucking on my fingers part of the time, mommy thought that was cute. My mommy and daddy got to see what I look like and the doctors said that everything looks perfect (the ultrasound would not show a vagus nerve problem though). They looked at my brain and my heart etc... they even found out what I am! Am I a little boy or a little girl?? Click here to find out!
Hi!! I am waving at you!!
Here I am! You can't see my whole leg in this particular picture though and Mommy thinks that looks kinda funny!
January 18, 2001 (20 weeks!): Half way to my due date! Yay!
February 8, 2001 (23 weeks): My mommy tripped on the stairs and hit her belly on a hand rail! She was really worried about me but I seem to be doing ok. I am still very active, it is fun kicking Mommy from the inside. Mommy has a book that says I probably weigh about a pound or a little more right now.
March 5, 2001 (26 1/2 weeks): My mommy had an appt a few days ago, at 26 weeks. Her midwife, Carol, measured her belly and it measured just right for 26 weeks, so she knows that I am growing just fine. She also had to have a one hour blood sugar test and some other blood drawn, and that all came out fine too! I probably weigh a little more than two pounds. Mommy and I are moving into the third trimester!!
Here I am in my mommy's belly, nice and cozy!
March 30, 2001 (30 weeks): Everything is going great. My mommy's belly measured just right for 30 weeks.
April 12, 2001 (32 weeks): Mommy's book says that I weigh about 4 pounds now... I am getting very big! It says that I will keep gaining half a pound a week until I am born. I am also very strong, I can punch and kick mommy really hard!
April 19, 2001 (33 weeks): Mommy and I went to a drs appt and mommy's belly is still measuring right on schedule. We found out that mommy's midwife, who she has been seeing the whole time, has to go to a conference in California! She is leaving on June 9th for a week! I am due on June 7th, so I better make a timely appearance! Mommy's midwife said that she may try to nudge mommy's cervix along starting at 37 weeks, but that it probably wouldn't make a big difference.
I am supposed to weigh about 5 pounds now! Aren't I making mommy's belly big??
May 3, 2001 (35 weeks): Mommy and I have a dr appt today. We are going to see Mommy's "back-up" midwife in case I decide to come after Carol leaves for her conference on June 9th. Mommy's book says that I weigh about 5 1/2 pounds now.
May 10, 2001 (36 weeks): Yesterday mommy fell outside on the tar. The dr said to go to the hospital so they could monitor me for a bit. She did and the dr said that I was doing fine. Today, we went in for our regular appt and since mommy was worried, her midwife had me monitored again. The monitoring showed that I am doing great. Then mommy saw me on an ultrasound. I am really big so she could only see a little bit of me at a time. I was sucking on my fingers again... I really like to do that, I was doing it at my 18 week ultrasound too!
Here is a profile of my face at 36 weeks
May 17, 2001 (37 weeks): Mommy went to an appt today. The midwife said that I am about average to a little above-average in size and that she thinks I weigh 6 3/4 to 7 pounds right now.
Here is my mommy at 37 weeks!
May 22, 2001 (37w5d): I was very sleepy today and decided to nap a lot. This made my mommy very nervous so she called the dr and we went to the hospital so that I could get checked out. They said that I was fine though, I was just resting a lot.
May 25, 2001 (38w1d): We had an appt today. Mommy's body has made more progress (since our last appt) for me to come out, it could be any time now! The midwife said that I weigh "a *good* 7 pounds" and that I am in just the right position.
May 31, 2001 (39 weeks): At our appt today, mommy's midwife said that she has made some more progress and that it could be any time now... but if I don't come in the next week then they are going to give me an eviction notice. Mommy's midwife is going to break mommy's water next Friday morning, June 8th. So I will be here sometime within the next week!
June 2001 (40 weeks): At mommy's appt today, her midwife said that she has made more progress. I will be born tomorrow!
....Actually, I decided not to wait, I was born on that same day after a fast labor!! I was born on Mommy and Daddy's wedding anniversary!
Waiting
Waiting, such a hard thing to doWhen all I want is to meet you.
Wondering how you’ll be,
Hoping to be set free,
From the grip of pain and grief,
That the time we had with you sister was so brief.
Oh baby girls, we love you so,
Just how much you’ll never know.
We have to believe that Rachel lives on,
Even though from this earth she’s gone.
Hannah please come in love and peace,
And we pray Dear Lord you’ll let us keep,
Our little girl, soon to be born,
Surely one daughter is enough to mourn
(Babies names changed), written by Kerri Bond during her subsequent pregnancy
A DIFFERENT CHILD
People notice there's a special glow around you.
You grow surrounded by love, never doubting you are wanted;
Only look at the pride and joy in your mother and father's eyes.
And if sometimes between the smiles there's a trace of tears,
one day you'll understand.
You'll understand there was once another child.
A different child.
Who was their hopes and dreams.
That child will never outgrow the baby clothes.
That child will never keep them up at night.
In fact, that child will never be much trouble at all...
Except sometimes, in a silent moment,
when mother and father miss so much that different child.
May hope and love wrap you warmly and may you learn the lesson forever:
How infinitely precious, how infinitely fragile is this life on earth.
One day, as a young man or woman, you may see another mother's tears, another father's silent grief, then you, and you alone will understand and offer the greatest comfort.
When all hope seems lost, you will tell them with great compassion, "I know how you feel. I'm only here because my mother tried again."
~Written by Pandora Diane Waldron for Madoka Marietta Rosalie.
Dear Mommy,
I know how much you love me
and I know how much you care.
I know that you're still wishing
that I could be down there.
I know this day is hard for you
and I know you'll probably cry
and Jesus knows you're hurting too
and He understands just why.
I wish that I could be there
To wipe away your tears
but, I'm up here with Jesus now
and in some future year,
We all will be together
and there will be no more tears
and we'll get to know each other
like we always wanted to.
But for now just know I love you
and Jesus loves you, too.
My father here in Heaven
watches over me for you.
He's sending someone to you
that I already know.
Someone you and Daddy can love
and touch and hold.
A little person bright and new
whose life you two will mold.
So please remember Mommy
This new baby on your knee
is bringing to you from above
a little part of me.
Love,
Your little angel
(~author unknown)